Wednesday, September 23, 2015

To My Pidglets...

Oh you amazing and wonderful, ornery and independent loves of my life.  I'm feeling wise today... all motherly and such.  Okay maybe that's going a bit far.  However, while doing the dishes I asked one of you to do that you didn't... and not because I'm angry but because I love you... I started thinking - thinking about this.

Life is about change, trial, heartbreak and defeat.  Life is about triumph, success, goals reached and learning from the great and the not so good.  We have choices and I so hope that in all of my meddlesome flaws and cracked surfaces you find that in the matter of good and bad you remember that I always stood back up.

You're gorgeous physically and your guts are glorious too.  There are things, different things, in each of you I can lay a small claim to distributing to your DNA but mostly I see the future of what I want to become one day; once you're all done raising me.

We have an anthem in this family a motto of sorts, "SUCK IT UP AND BE A MAN"  By no means does this imply women aren't just as, if not stronger than men.  It's meant to be a way of life, an inspiration to not allow life to swallow you whole in all of it's twist turns, knives in the back and scraped knees.  And that my pidglets we do - and we do it well.

I see the potential in you that you don't have the years to acknowledge just yet.  I see the light in the darkened hallways of your heartbreaks and worries.  I feel your warmth when your souls are dampened.  While I've not ever been loved by a man, I am so truly loved, deeply loved, scream with laughter and tears type of adoration.  The irony is not lost on me.  But it's all because of you.  My beautiful plantlings that I will never turn my back on, never lose hope in and forever will you be my driving force - even when you've all flown the coop and spread those endlessly magnificent wings of yours.

In the past I have shared this and I believe it's time I rewrite, to share the growth our family has evolved to; just bear with me, I'm full of love right now just thinking of your treasured selves.

Bailey (Bai)

The Radiance:  She is the ray of warmth open arms, soft hands to wipe tears; a graceful voice of comfort.  Encouraging words, delivering support she is the right hand; the guardian to the throne.

McKenna (Moi  pronounced Moy)
The Healer: She sits quietly behind the scenes waiting to take her place.  She aids the tired bringing calm to the shaken soul.  Always there to pick up the pieces and stow them carefully in a small box of burden she keeps for all of us.

Hanna (Lil Red)

The Fire: She heats our cold spirits and lights our candles that diminish from strong winds of madness.  Her brightness illuminates our path and upon trudging towards a new journey, she always packs additional kindling.  Without her warmth, a cold winter we would bear.

Breelyn (Busy)

The Humor:  She fills our world with loud laughter and streams of smile.  Where there is ache, she crafts delight.  Loving giggles and mischief as a science, she quakes our world with vibrant color and whimsical spice.

Ethan (Lil “E”)

The Playful:  He stands close to all, watching, waiting for his opportunity to pounce.  With silly fits and tickling words, surprise attacks of love and thoughtful expressions, he reminds us it never remains dark.

Logan (Lil Man)

The Innocent:  He is a miracle of his own determination.  He brightens our trail with sweetness and iridescence cleansing our wounds he washes clean our worries setting free our troubles.

I have found that while my pidglets all posses the same talents as listed in the words above; they have evolved.  They have grown into warriors, fighters and protectors.  They have grown into themselves and what a presence they posses.

With that in mind, here is an updated love letter to my pidglets, the gifts of spice and wild-spirit I have been blessed to receive.

Bailey (Bai)

The Whisper:
She is the brightness from a darkened hallway. She has relinquished her post of sentry to the throne to cast upon her own head a glowing crown of thorn-less flowers. She seeks knowledge learning from the past, continually watching over her shoulder to insure we are safe. She has grown into her own life never leaving behind the family that sacrificed together, kept each other close; always making certain we know she is still here in spirit, in thought and in love.

McKenna (Moi – pronounced Moy)

The Sentry:
She has grown from the healer to The Guardian to the throne. She is self-appointed to the right hand of the Matriarch. Born into challenge she fights fearlessly to keep our sanity, our health and our bond. With wit as strong as a double edged sword she refuses to falter and never lets go of her duty as guard to those that kneel at her feet. Her love is deep, her compassion is her motivation. She feels, breathes in and absorbs the conflict; lashing out to the enemies that dare to threaten our peace. She is vigor, she is treasure, she is unknowingly the keeper of all.

Hanna (Lil Red)

The Fighter:
She is grounded but with large wings that will take her anywhere she desires to go in life. She is loyal and fiercely protective of her deepest loves. She is knowledge and she is strength; at times we pale in her shadow. She is conflicted, unable to see her potential; she is contradiction, standing on the line of what is right and what is real. She feels the ache of our pains so deeply. She will destroy, decimate and crush all that threaten our world; a world of spinning and swirling we have created together. She is laughter, she is love, she is steadfast. No one will be admitted without her approval. Her gloves are always off, she stands as she seems; a pillar of courage and the flame of warmth.

Breelyn (Busy)

The faithful:
While she holds to the laughter she possess within, she is now grasped the role of watcher. She is the mother-ling that attempts to speak her words of reason. Right or wrong she voices with authority sometimes forgetting she herself is a seedling. Her command is strong and her resilience is one with nature. Forgiving in the blink of an eye she only desires happiness for everyone. She is the illumination of hope and the seeker of all that is good. Her worries run deep, her nature is pure, her potential is endless. She is the keeper of records, ready to erase the pain and trials of others.

Ethan (Lil E)

The Knot:
He is the tie that binds us all together. He loves all and his roots are deeply planted. A boy who has become a man beyond his years in this home he listens and learns and becomes one with all. With a spirit that is unsure of himself he has grown into the glue that keeps us solid. In laughter and fits of ridiculousness he brings us close, he fights for his own voice, forever insuring we are never hurt or pricked by the pains of others. His humor is wild, his soul is tall and his nature is wonder. Keeping our seas calm and the storms at bay he holds together a home of lasting faith and a desire to be more. He wears his heart upon his benevolent cladding. At the end of the day, love is all he remembers.

Logan (Lil Man)

The Teacher:
Born last to the clan he is the keeper of men and woman. Though young, his mind is ever-changing, ever-growing. He sees all sides and give us wisdom beyond his age of another's view on life. He changes, heals and loves. With a gentle hug and thoughtful word his cunning foresight creeps into our thoughts and breaks anger, changes hurtful opinions allowing us to sail through the storm; seeing the world for the beauty it possesses. He is the calm, he is the quiet, he is our conscience of good. He draws lines for us to follow bringing us back to each other. He is a listener, a peacemaker, a tolerant warrior who works well for and with others. With a smile that might charm a Queen he uses his powers to grow and spread insight. The best of the last, the exclamation point at the end of the sentence.

My children… the astounding reminder that Heaven exists… the glow of my hazel eyes and my reason to breathe.

They are the one BEAUTIFUL nature I have given back to the world.


1 comment:

  1. "mostly I see the future of what I want to become one day; once you're all done raising me." Love this!!! I am so in awe of your words and your heart. What beautiful words about your children. I love reading what you write. It's like a breath of fresh air. Xo


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