Tuesday, September 6, 2011


For the most part I try to be Positive
But sometimes it's just...well, it's just REALLY HARD.

I attempt to find the Bright side
I Smile when I want to scream
I laugh when I want to cuss like a sailor
I turn my frown upside down
I turn the other cheek
I make jokes as if nothing is wrong
I care  for others when I want to cry

But sometimes...just sometimes... I wish it would all just go away, change, disappear, relinquish the pain...the trial..all that crud that is supposed to make me stronger.

Tonight is one of those nights.  I don't wish harm upon implied harasser.  I don't wish suffering or pain.  
{Perhaps a little annoyance might cause me to grin}

I just would like to breathe; a little easier.  I know that Heavenly Father is watching and waiting; perhaps to see my reaction, my faith and my staying power.  

I know things are all done in His time.  But sometimes, like tonight, I just want to be filled in on the plan.

{Deep breath}

But sometimes...that's just not "the plan".  Yet.

So with that little bit of venting said; I will be making a doll in above mentioned harassers image and sticking pins in it's butt.

loves & happy fake smiles {wink}



  1. I don't know what it is about children or husbands that makes us think we are never allowed to have a negative feeling day. I get the same feelings as you. Hope you feel better soon!


  2. Thank you Amber, I slept for a bit...amazing how that can help! "This time" I'm lucky my husband and children are innocent... (I should put in a disclaimer) Haha! Thanks so much for stopping by. :)

  3. I am picturing what this doll would look like and I think I just might pee my pants. I think there would be plenty of squishy places to put the pins! Aaaahaaahahahahaaaa!!!!!!

  4. Sheila! Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha! You are QUITE right! Wow, venting does work I'm already laughing about it ;)

  5. "in it's butt" HAHAHAHA!!!! I too wish I could be "in on the plan". The waiting and not knowing why is so hard sometimes.


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